"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true."
meredith grey

words are hard to find
because i am afraid that when i speak them or write them
the beauty of everything will be lost
and i will have to wake up and shake myself off this wonderful feeling of intoxication and bliss.
my straddling life with one foot in my own grave
living it out on the very edge
knowing that any moment could be the last